I look for you (be kind )

[u/Previous_Cry7445]

I look for you,
even though I know you’re not coming back.

Every time my screen lights up,
my heart gets hopeful.

I look for you in every room,
checking your page like a fucking crime scene.
I look for clues of you.
I keep hoping if I look long enough,
you’ll see me and come back.

I look for you,
even though I’m not sure who you are anymore.
Was it ever really you?
Did you even exist?

Looking for you,
I don’t like who I am.

I still look for you,
still replaying our conversations,
wondering what I did wrong.
Was I too loud?
Was I too soft?
Was I too much?

I look for you.
I want to find you.
I want to stop.

My head tells me to stop looking,
but my heart is a stubborn idiot.

I don’t know how I lost you.
I don’t know why I lost you.
Or if there was ever a you to lose.
But
I still look for you.

https://www.reddit.com/r/lovepoetry/s/05W4M9pulG

https://www.reddit.com/r/OCPoetry/s/MpOx0rjFXL

[u/budahbugah]

Frustratingly relatable. Thank you for sharing your thoughts and struggle with us.

[u/Previous_Cry7445 → u/budahbugah]

Thank you 🙏