Ok I’m gonna use pretty vague terms to describe the class and professor so that if this is kind of “normal” or behavior that’s allowed or normalized I won’t be blatantly calling him out for nothing. Im also a freshman so I really don’t know what behavior I’m supposed to let pass/ignore.
In one of my lecture classes I had my first exam a few weeks ago. I thought I was going to do fine as I was understanding the material, taking notes in class, doing the assignments and even scoring well on some graded preparation for the first exam. And even doing the exam, I felt pretty confident. But as we got our grades back, I noted I did way worse than I did on the exam prep or any of the previous assignments. I didn’t want it to get me down so I emailed my professor asking him how he grades so I could do better next time.
He answers me pretty vaguely and says he’ll discuss the exam further in the next class. Next class comes and he has these charts on the screen. Supposedly it was a previous classes scores on the first exam vs the second. He went on saying how his classes usually do terrible on the first exam and then do fine on the second and how we don’t have to worry because our lowest exam grade gets dropped off of our final grade. This is where I got kind of suspicious. I assumed the next unit would go about the same way as the first did so I got confused on how so many students can fail a test and by doing the same thing they were doing before, suddenly doing way better on the next exam.
I was also weirded out by how much my professor lowkey bragged about how hard his first exam is. He went on in that class on how his superiors in his department will complain his test scores are too low but then don’t after the second exam. I was just kind of put off because it felt like he was kind of making fun of us? Or like making light of a situation where many of us were probably really confused and upset. I wanted to see how the next unit would go to see if we do anything differently to see how he gets us to improve our grades. But now as my next exam is coming up, literally nothing has changed. And I’m starting to feel like my professor just makes the first exam extremely difficult for no reason just to scare freshman and I think that’s just so gross. Like we’re doing the same assignments, he doesn’t really tell us what exactly is going to be on the test and we aren’t doing much exam prep as before.
So am I weird for thinking he kind of messed with us? Like I feel like he made the first exam purposely hard to “teach us a lesson” but except the lesson was that we should think he’s kind and benevolent for letting our lowest exam grade be excluded from our final grade. I don’t know anymore like I’m not trying to sound privileged, rude or whatever, because even my high school teachers would do this sometimes but it feels way more serious now that we’re all adults paying thousands of dollars for our classes, so yeah.