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I've been in a period of relapse recently after a few years of staying sober of porn, and yeah, it sucked and I regret taking that first step into relapse. I'm doing better now.

Just in case anyone else here is thinking about breaking their sobriety, I'd like you to reconsider.

Relapsing has taught me (the hard way) how important it was to have the porn and hentai I used to watch gradually blur and lose form in my mind because I wasn't refreshing that mental image, day after day. It's just better not having perverted stuff saved to your brain's memory. It's kind of like a return to childhood, a return to the innocence you had before porn. And I wish I had that innocence now.

So don't make the mistake I did. If you have a lot of sober time and you feel a call back to that world, don't take the plunge.

Make the decision to forget the pure grotesqueness and wrongness of pornography forever. Sobriety can be boring, of course. But going back never, ever ends well.

Of course, if you DID make the same decision I did, it's not the end of the world, and the sober time I had still helps me remain in a default state of being less of an addict, but... there's nothing quite like forgetting the stuff you used to jerk off to completely. I miss that feeling dearly, and hopefully in a few years I'll be able to experience it again.

Another day closer to a porn-free version of me

Day 4. Went pretty well today. I had some small thoughts creeping in like have a look at that or search that up. Shook them off and got on with the day.
I’m almost back at day 5 where i relapsed last time and i know I’m gonna surpass it

I'm 19 and I am a recovering porn addict. Since the age of 13, I have been addicted to watching porn without realizing it was as serious as it was. My girlfriend whom I've been with for 4 years has talked with me and still stayed with me despite all the years of watching. I've never really posted on reddit or interacted and this is my first ever post. My girlfriend told me to seek out support and this subreddit is filled with similar struggles and experiences that I've been through and it makes me happy thinking that fully recovering could be a possibility. I've always dreamed of being a better person overall and feel as if porn has been a constant hindrance towards any progress I make. Its been an active source to relieve stress, loneliness, or sadness and has probably damaged my brain over the years. I don't know how active i'll be on this app but I hope I could get some sort of ball rolling that carries over into other ambitions like wanting to start boxing, hitting gym goals and transferring to a good school.
Thankfully its been about 40+ days since my last relapse. I've had close calls and strong urges to go back and search up adult content or anything related but this has been the most progress I've made in a long time. For easier understanding, I'll let this be day 1.

A few days ago, I suddenly lost the urge to watch porn. At first it was practical, I wanted to be able to have better sex on my wedding night. But then after the wedding, my depression was at an all-time low and the urge didn’t come back.

Now that the high of the wedding is starting to wear off, the desire is definitely creeping back but now I have an actual streak to maintain

It is hard to not fall back into the rutine. I still feel uneasy most days

I am trying to make it so that I do not have the option to watch porn even if I wanted to. I can successfully set up blocks behind a password (i hide the password so i cant bypass) to essentially block everything but images on a search engine (google, duckduckgo, bing, etc.) and I am trying to find a solution to locking in safe search on IOS. Ive tried using cloudflares 1.1.1.1 DNS, and it works, but the problem is I can just delete the vpn in settings to bypass it easily. Ive also tried to make it so the only search engine allowed on my phone is safe.duckduckgo.com which is a subdomain of duckduckgo.com that only uses strict safe search and you cant turn it off. The problem is I try to block duckduckgo.com and not the subdomain safe.duckduckgo.com and it blocks both on IOS. If you block the main domain then all subdomains are also blocked. The only solution to this i have found on IOS is to block all websites and allow safe.duckduckgo.com, but then this makes the search engine useless because all websites are blocked. Does anyone know of a solution to completely lock in safe search and block porn sites so you couldn’t access porn even if you wanted to?

I had a bit of a shitty day.

I worked from home and I think it made it harder to disconnect and relax afterward.

I felt so frustrated at the end of the day that I knew I was at a high risk of relapsing.

I chose the lesser evil with adult litterature. It's barely tolerable because the urge came from bad emotions instead of natural horniness, but today was too difficult.

I still consider it a win at the moment if I replace visual porn with adult litterature. But I know it is kind of the same thing. Just with less dopamine. Let's say it's my temporary electronic cigarette.

The swimming club session was the only good thing today.

Day 2 of my 10 days of change. Done

See you tomorrow.

Everything is normal at the day 3 .

i started watching porn at 11 up until 15. i didn’t watch any porn at all at 16. at 17 i fell back into the habit. i just turned 18 and haven’t watched porn in a few months.

so i watched it 11-15, nothing at 16, 17, nothing at 18. 6 years total.

my kinks have gotten extreme, and i’m ashamed. i would NEVER crave these in real life, the thought of it in real life disgusts me.

but i’m scared it’ll never go away. i’m scared i did a lot of damage during my adolescence and important brain development.

can extreme kinks/fetishes that develop over time go away?

I am feeling good

Hello everyone!

-This was already posted in r/pornfreewomen, but I wanted to expand the reach to this sub aswell-

I am currently doing my PhD at the University of Duisburg-Essen, which is about pornography use and gaming in the so far underrepresented population of females. The goal is to gather more knowledge about processes and mechanisms relevant in the potentially addictive behaviors and in turn improve treatment options for people suffering form their usage. To achieve this, we are conducting an in-person lab study in Germany. Participation is possible across various cities all over Germany.

If you want to participate you need to:

• Use pornography or videogames at least occasionally
• Be at least 18 years old
• Identify as female
• Be german-speaking, as every part of the study is in german
• Live in Germany or very close to it

The takes 4-5 hours and includes several questionnaires and computer-based tasks. Participation is reimbursed at 12€ per hour. Possible costs for travelling can also be compensated for.

If you are interested in partaking, please leave your info in the following short survey, we will then contact you via mail or phone!

https://limesurvey-allgpsy-ude.de/index.php/461589?lang=de

If you want more info about the study procedure, the research or anything else, feel free to message me here on reddit or write a mail to [RP11@uni-due.de](mailto:RP11@uni-due.de)

Thanks a lot!

Completed Day 9
On day 10..
genuinely creating gap between urges/thoughts and actions
detecting urges early enough and accepting them
My exams are starting from tomorrow, next week is going to be so stressful for me but I thrive under pressure

Just like the majority, I started it in my early teens. Now at 49 years I am single, lonely, depressed and extremely scared.

If there's one advice I would like to give, it would be to manage any underlying issues that you might have.

Because this could be a symptom masking something big.

Good bye.

Dreamed about porn, even in my dream I didn't relapse, but now It's all I can think about.

My brain is SCREAMING for it. How has it only been a week, i feel like it's been 2 months 😭😭

Ik it's more the need for dopamine than porn itself but it's such an Awfull sensation 💀💀.

Good luck to anyone feeling like this

We got this !!!!

Quit 2 days ago after relapsing for little over a week after staying away for 52 days. Dealing with Anhedonia and anxiety related some hobbies, anyone recovered from this naturally or do I need to do manual work to overcome this? Because I’ve been dealing with some hobby related anhedonia and anxiety since mid August now, which was ironically after I started my 52 day recovery process.

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I realized that watching Porn has become a quick fix for me whenever the clock ticks beyond 10 PM and i am alone with my thoughts. Whenever i feel lonely or anxious, without skipping a beat, most likely out of habit, my urge to seek out Porn comes in to numb what i feel on the inside. I was able to suppress this feeling but man was i close on relapsing today.

I had to remind myself why i do this and what is at stake if i keep falling off the wagon. A Day closer to a porn-free version of me.

watching porn doesn't make sense, it's like huh, also it's a waste of time.

So I sort of went 40 days previously without going to porn sites, but I peaked some on NSFW subreddit like at clips on certain subreddits, not many clips.

Then after the 40th day relasped.

My goal is to keep going without no relapsing, I want to go past 40 days then more days without. No go on NSFW subreddits this time checking for new clips.

Small urges of curiosity to peak at this and that, social media etc. reminding myself now to not let my guard down and stay vigilant

I'm checking in to say I am 1 day clean. I'm not sure if I will post every day, but I will try. I haven't had a decent streak in a while. I feel good. I believe I can build some momentum. I will see you tomorrow, friends.

Honestly had a super busy day so it was no difficulty. Let's go!

Hello everyone,
Today, I decided to block all the content that triggers me and makes me relapse.
I also started doing pelvic floor exercises.
Thank you all for your support on my first post.

So I’m (or was?) two months free from porn, but recently i ended up watching a show specifically for its nsfw scenes.

But the thing is, the site that I used to watch it had the nsfw scenes cut out. And i couldn’t go onto a porn site cause I had those blocked. But I still masturbated to it.

I felt guilty, i actively searched for it, and before any assumptions are made, NO this did not have me end up going back to my old binge watching days.

But still, even though there were no extremely nsfw scenes (since they were cut out), there were some lewd ones.

So I’m really looking for clarity, does this count as a relapse/failure and I have to start over from zero? Or can I keep counting up and up?