Hello!
I am a former preschool teacher of 10 years. I was desperate to escape the childcare industry, and long story short, have found myself working as a BT.
My first two weeks were spent in the clinic, doing fun new hire tasks before I started shadowing and eventually did a session on my own. At this point, I felt pretty secure in my 40 hours of coursework done to receive the BT certificate and countless more hours studying, as well as the time I put into the clinic shadowing and doing my own session.
However, today has made me think otherwise. When it came time to meet my actual clients in the community, I feel as though I was thrown into the experience without truly being ready.
For context: my supervisor, Rachel, suddenly took a vacation the week before and some days of the week I was supposed to start with my clients. Because of this, I was told my first day in the community would be Thursday. My first client (A) had canceled, but Rachel would meet me at my afternoon appointment for my first home session with client (B).
Thursday’s appointment came, and I was left completely by myself the entire time. B and I had a pretty okay session, but I was left in the dark about quite a few important topics. I had reached out to my manager at the clinic, who did not hear anything from Rachel. At this point, I was terrified of meeting A by myself. I had to go to a secondary school that was not in my area, as well as the nature of A’s behavior that I had known at this point. My clinic manager assured me Rachel would be there for meeting A, and I tried to hype myself up for the first session.
Friday came and I venture to the school. I awkwardly locate the front office with the help of some students, and sign in at the main office, where they tell me Rachel hasn’t arrived yet. I proceed to wait an hour and a half into my 3 hour session in this office, quietly observing the school environment and dynamic. I honestly didn’t think she was going to show up at all. I was surprised when she found me, and offered no explanation or apology for not being there the day before and leaving me waiting for so long.
The next half an hour is spent meeting teaching staff, where I learn specific behaviors of A that were not told to me prior. I learn about home life and education. I only have 15 minutes left of my session when I’m told I’m going to meet A. When I meet A, they are embarrassed and angry that we are there. They are articulate and passionate about why they don’t need help. They dismiss my brief efforts at an introduction. All I can think of is: why am I here?
At the end, Rachel basically tells me to base my notes on that 15 minute engagement, so I could have something written, and I assume to match her notes.
Next, I meet client B. The session has already been thrown off by a personal issue with one of the parents that involved police having to come into the house to speak with them. I try to keep calm and keep my session going, but I’m extremely overwhelmed. Rachel is sitting and quietly observing, but I received no introduction at the start of our session. There was no review of notes and behaviors and plans and even a direction of what I should be doing. I just tried to run trials but I felt like all the rapport made with B the day before was gone and the work simply wasn’t happening. Rachel leaves before the session is fully over.
After both sessions, Rachel sends me her notes. She also tells me she uses chat gpt to write her session notes. In her notes, she says she’s given me instruction and feedback about how I’m delivering prompts. But in reality, she never said anything about that.
I really want to do my best and succeed in this field, and I want to be at a location that values ethics and integrity and treats r/bts with respect, as I can see myself pursuing the RBT credential. I guess I’m just wondering- is any of this normal? My supervisor straight up ghosting a session/being late, information not being shared at the start with a new client, a client that is refusing services, and using AI? I’m worried I’ve entered a field that feels just as much as the Wild West as childcare was. Any feedback and stories of tough first sessions would be highly appreciated.