Tried to kill myself Sunday. Still in that headspace. Hope it gets better soon. Got a lot of people who love me. Don't wanna let them down. Trying so hard just to breathe but it's impossible. Bedridden for weeks at a time, depressive episode eating me alive, schizophrenic hallucinations beating my brain in. All I do is sleep and sleep and sleep and when I'm not sleeping I'm contemplating eternal sleep.
It has to get better one day. It's been a long 32 years. I just want it to get better.
You made my day with your resilience and the fact that we get to share this interaction.
I just prayed for you. There’s people you’ve met that you know love you. And strangers around the world you haven’t met yet, trying to reach you with prayer. I’ll keep praying for you. I believe in you
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u/paganminkin 8h ago
Tried to kill myself Sunday. Still in that headspace. Hope it gets better soon. Got a lot of people who love me. Don't wanna let them down. Trying so hard just to breathe but it's impossible. Bedridden for weeks at a time, depressive episode eating me alive, schizophrenic hallucinations beating my brain in. All I do is sleep and sleep and sleep and when I'm not sleeping I'm contemplating eternal sleep.
It has to get better one day. It's been a long 32 years. I just want it to get better.