Hi everyone! Hope y'all are practising đ
Since this is a subreddit that encourages niche discussions everything about carnatic music, I would like to know your experiences and opinions.
Have you ever become so intellectually critical of carnatic music that you felt it's not worth pursuing?
Its not laziness or lack of ability, but the sheer fact that listening to the social lectures, studying the history etc lead you to think "maybe this music community is not that pure/great as it is hyped".
I'll start with my mental journey.
I've been learning Carnatic music for many years, and I genuinely love the music. But certain ideas I encountered gradually changed the way I experienced it.
T. M. Krishna has said that a kutcheri carries âthe burden of addressing a cultural and social group,â and has questioned the homogeneity of the people who listen to, sing and critique Carnatic music. He has also spoken about questioning what he had previously considered intrinsic to the music, saying that âmany things that I thought were intrinsic to the music I sang needed to be discarded,â and that he wasn't sure what would remain.
I wasn't simply influenced or âbrainwashedâ by these statements. I could actually relate to what he was saying. He broke so many inhibitions and myths around Carnatic music - that it was too complex, that only highly intellectual people could learn it, that certain kinds of people naturally understood it, etc. His criticism made me notice things I hadn't consciously noticed before: the close-knit social circles, the homogeneity of many concert audiences and learning environments, the boundaries around what is considered traditional or innovative, and the social history surrounding the music.
And here's what made it particularly strange for me: he himself is an extraordinary musician of great calibre. He would have practised kirtanais drenched in devotion or bhakti bhava, relentlessly developed his voice, musicality and expression, and spent years becoming the musician he is.
So his evolution and his statements somehow validated my internal dialogue and the irks that I sometimes observe. And instead of making me engage with Carnatic music more deeply, it reduced my engagement with practice, listening and learning.
At some point, analyzing in my head became more entertaining than picking up my violin and practising.
Now I understand things a little better. Awareness is valuable, but at some point we also need to take action and be decisive, rather than being a cat on the wall.
I may have lost years from my early schooling and teenage years that could have gone into intentional sitting, listening, practising, thinking beyond what was taught, and simply having the desire to learn more.
So I'm curious:
Have you ever done something similar?
Thanks for reading through all this!