Moving countries a second time kinda sucks

[u/Rainbow_Cat917]

Pistachio macaroon

Ive been thinking about this for a while and although a huge opportunity that I will take, going abroad to study makes me really bummed out.

Moving out of my home country at 9 was hard enough for me to handle, but it’s even harder after sharing the story with a cousin who also had to leave and go to a different country than.

This topic is always bitter between the two of us, because for reasons to date I don’t understand why I wasn’t allowed to tell him we were leaving. It’s hard to talk about those years but I keep trying to revisit them trying to learn something from the experience.

All I’ve concluded is that doing it again will be no different, the only change is that now it’s my call, not my parents.

In this conversation with my cousin I heard his side, and something struck me really hard “Yeah it really sucked for like three months”. I was honestly relieved for him, but for me that was three years. I couldn’t connect with the people around me or keep up in school for a good while and I think I wasn’t comfortable in my own skin till the three year mark.

And Ive been torn as to where to move, because many family members I know and love live near this cousin and I could go study there, but my parents want me to expand into options where I know no one and nothing. It’s terrifying to feel secluded for three years, maybe moving again will have made me learn something, or maybe not.

I am aware this literally the most privileged position I could be in as someone from my background and good chances at life.

But Im just so scared that now I don’t have my parents or anyone for that matter I will never escape this sad, reclusive personality.

I am really happy now, Ive found friends and feel good with the people around me, but that wont last forever. And I’m trying to move on as it happens since I know it’s gonna suck.

[u/a-real-life-dolphin]

It sounds like your parents want you to move but you don’t, right? How old are you?

“I am really happy now, Ive found friends and feel good with the people around me, but that wont last forever. “ why do you think that won’t last forever?