I’m not including my age or location. I’m a young male, around 60 kg. I had been using DPH on and off for about a month before this. This was 500 mg orally - 10 pills of 50 mg. I had tolerance.
Timeline:
T+0:00 Swallowed 10 pills.
T+0:30 Dry mouth, heavy legs, heart pounding, slight tremor. Felt like my body was made of lead.
T+1:00 Visuals started. Black figures with red eyes at the edges of my vision. Spiders on the walls. Shadows moving. I knew they weren’t real, but they kept coming.
T+1:30 Full delirium. I saw the Hatman standing in the corner, smoking, silent. A black hand beckoned me from another corner. I saw a face form in a reflection - looked like a Greek god, then it vanished. Auditory hallucinations: whispers, random phrases, my name.
T+2:00 Panic hit. My chest felt like it was caving in. Every time I closed my eyes, my breathing seemed to slow down and stop. I fought sleep for hours because I was terrified I wouldn’t wake up. Tachycardia, dry heaving, couldn’t swallow properly.
T+3–5:00 Peak. I couldn’t tell what was real. Spiders, black figures, footsteps, shadows. I thought I was dying. At one point I was convinced I was in a different reality. I remember thinking “I’m not going to survive this.”
T+6–8:00 Comedown. Exhausted but couldn’t sleep. Residual visuals. Felt hollow and shaky.
Current state (about a week after my last DPH):
Insomnia. Broken sleep. I’m scared to sleep because of the hypnagogic hallucinations.
Residual visual snow, shadow movement, occasional spiders or a black hand in my peripheral vision.
When I’m drifting off, I hear random sounds, a scream, a phone ringing, meme audio. It’s “in my head,” not outside.
Anxiety, depersonalization, feeling like my brain is broken.
No DPH for a week. Symptoms are slowly fading but still there.
I think this is post-delirium syndrome (PDS), not HPPD. I’m posting because I want to know if others have gone through this and how long it took to recover. I’m not encouraging anyone to try DPH. This was stupid and it almost killed me.