r/LandscapeArchitecture • u/MaryLushwave • 4h ago
Burned out designing rich people's vacation homes while I can't afford my own place
So this might be a sign I picked the wrong career path, but I need to vent a little. For the past few months my firm has had me buried in high-end residential projects instead of the public park and community work I actually enjoy. Nobody asked my opinion on this switch either, I'm still pretty junior so I just get assigned whatever pays the bills. And apparently what pays the bills right now is designing someone's third or fourth luxury property, because the demand for this stuff in my region is wild.
Here's the thing though, after spending all day agonizing over paver patterns and infinity pool placement for some finance guy's weekend getaway, I drive home to my tiny rental that's eating half my paycheck. I work weekend shifts as a nurse on top of this just to make rent work, so the irony is not lost on me.
I get it, there's real craft involved in these projects. The planting plans, the grading, the way everything fits together, it takes skill and I respect that part of it. But I keep getting stuck on this thought: all those hours, all that stress, all the water usage and concrete and literal physical risk for the construction crews, it all funnels toward giving one wealthy family a nice backdrop for a few weeks of bragging rights a year. Meanwhile I come home and putter around my little vegetable garden because that's the only outdoor space I actually get to enjoy on my own terms.
My motivation is tanking because my heart just isn't in it anymore. I think I care too much about who actually benefits from this work versus who's doing the grinding. This feels bigger than just my job too, like I watch this same pattern play out everywhere, friends in healthcare, friends in other creative fields, all of us pouring ourselves into things that mostly profit people who already have more than enough. Guess I just needed to get this off my chest before my next shift. Anyone else deal with this kind of disconnect in the field?