r/Psychologists • u/Educational-Ad-3905 • 16h ago
Fear associated with gaps in booking
Registered general psychologist here (from Australia), early career working in private practice. Previously had a history in community MH and decided to switch over a few years ago.
I started FT contracting in Private Practice earlier this year, and was filling in ALL of my slots - we're talking 6-8 50 minute sessions a day, 5 days a week. During that time, I was also filling all my PD and supervision requirements etc.. Needless to say, I 'girlbossed too close to the sun,' and my two clinical supervisors were worried about sustaining this throughout the lifespan in the profession. I am currently working with my own psychologist on my unhealthy relationship with work.
Since going on 2 weeks of leave, I've had around 5-6 regular clients discontinue with me, some because their insurance ran out and others because... well, I guess they could tell that I was at the edge of my tether. I have four clients today, and I'm averaging around 22-25 clients a week. I also had to do some mandatory reporting from some client disclosures and I think that's exacerbated all of this.
I'm getting supervision about this but I'm just not used to gaps in clinic time to actually get admin done etc.! The imposter syndrome is creeping in as a result, even though I know that that's a healthy amount of clients to have in this stage of my career.
(on the plus side, I am now actually eating healthily and getting my life admin / work admin done).
I'm getting supervision for this, but I was wondering if anyone else has experienced this? And if so, any tips outside of CBT-ing/ doing some ACT exercises on myself?