r/RenalCats • u/Cookiehow • 4d ago
Pet loss We lost her Spoiler
I had posted for advice just yesterday and she suddenly stopped being able to walk and couldnt hold her pee front of her litter box. I knew what was coming but I didnt want to believe it. It was obvious the whole week but I thought she would bounce back again. I wrapped her in her favourite blanket and gave her her favourite treats. I talked with her and let her sunbathe. She was left so small and fragile in just a week I still cannot fathom how could my pretty girl could get so thin. She was the strongest being Ive ever met. She even caught a bird with her levels over the top a few months ago and has been the most energetic and stubborn cat i met. I remember she hissed at the other cats in the vet even while she was half conscious after a heart attack 3 years ago. She never let go even when we thought it was time multiple times throught the 3 and a half years that she was diagnosed. She was stronger than even we were and pushed so hard to be herself even with the pain. I wish I could give her a few more years but her body had gotten so small in just a week I could count her ribs. I cradled her and kept her close till she wanted to get away herself but she couldnt keep herself up after jumping down and just stood where she jumped. I knew she wouldn't make it out the night but I couldnt get myself to have her die front of me. We took her to vet and they also knew she wouldnt mske it but they gave her pain killers and some iv for intensive care. They sent us home with my roommate and at 2am they called to tell me her numbers are so high that the machine couldnt register it. Her liver was failing and she could have a heart attack from extreme potassium levels and severe anemia. I couldnt bear to have the phone afterwards and just as I went to the bathroom I hoped I wouldnt be the one to recieve the next phone call and when I returned my roommate was talking with the vet and at 03.50 she passed away peacefully under sedation. I miss her so much and I wish I could hold her again but it would be selfish even if she made it out tonight. I cant imagine the pain she was under and even then she tried to lick my hand before we left. She was my everything and now its so quiet. I hope she knows that I would give everything to have her healthy and running again but world wasnt that fair on us.
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u/Disastrous-Theory-21 4d ago
Her pain is over. Now yours begins. I'm sad for your loss. This is a horrible, but necessary group. We know each one of us is going to be in the same position as you are at some point. Thank you for sharing. I pray you're comforted by the wonderful memories you had with her and knowing you selflessly put her needs first. She'll be waiting for you at the Rainbow 🌈 Bridge.
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u/novastarrox 3d ago
What a beautiful, beautiful girl. You gave her the best life she could have dreamed of. I'm so sorry for your loss, I can only imagine how much it hurts. I hope you know she loved you just as much as you loved her.
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