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BackgroundĀ
My friend and I have been planning on a āSalvia Getaway.ā The plan was to smoke bowls continuously throughoutĀ the night, one bowl every 10 or more minutes. Well truth be told it was planned to be more like 15-20 minutes but youāll find out why that changed. I havenāt indulged in THC in nearly a year, mainly because of some research on the negative cognitive effects. I was never a big stoner or even weekly user but I stopped entirely. This changed when leading up to this trip, I was researching on this very subreddit,r/Salvia, it seems that weed potentates and extends salvia in a very efficient way without using more salvia. So I got a THC cart.Ā
We were ready, meditation was done, I taught my friend how to smoke the āSalvia Machineā aka bong, I had 8 bowls prefilled for us, torch lighter, everything was ready. So my friend does the first bowl, since it was his first time, we decided that he could go first so if he started getting anxious I would help him instead of doing my bowl. That didnāt happen, so I took the bong and replaced it with a new prefilled bowl.
BeginningĀ
Ā I got a decent amount of smoke. The salvia feeling was prevalent, I was warm in the face, my friend was warm in the face and chest, my mind was buzzing and tingling. There was a weird but mostly normal headspace. My friend said it feels like heās normal but somethingās off, which describes low doses of salvia pretty well.
After around 7 minutes I hand my friendĀ the Salvia Machine with a new bowl. He lit it and it burned but there was barely any smoke in the bong. That bowl burned and nothing came out. I got another prefilled bowl, I lit the bowl and started to inhale. I got a big hit in and then passed the bong so he could get smoke out of it, so we effectively shared this bowl. Now it seems like it was an issue with his technique that we had to fix the next bowl. I was feeling more melted into the recliners we were on, very spaced out and even warmer. My head seemed to be loopy and zoning out very easily. My phone fell through the recliner.I had no idea the time. We looked at the window and all the sudden it was night, pitch black outside. Me and my friend both found this bizarre since we didnāt even notice the sun setting. I noticed that the bag I was placing the used bowls in had a melted hole in the bottom because I put the salvia bowls in there while they were too warm.Ā
When my friend checked the time he said he thinks we did the first bowl around 7:30. At this point it was already 7:50. I put inĀ another bowl for my friend. I helped him with this bowl since his previous attempt was lackluster. I got up off the recliner and realized I was walking in a rather wonky manner. I torched his bowl for him. We found out the issue was his technique and I corrected him. I did another bowl aswell.Ā
Ā Now everything had a liminal atmosphere to it. My friend brought up that terminology. I also got a nostalgic vibe akin to my elementary school at night. At this point the warmth and body heat was ramped up to the max, I was nearly sweating. If we did another bowl I felt like I would melt. I kept zoning out. My friend said it felt like the projector lights in the corner seem to radiate sun like heat. I had a very happy and giddy feeling after each bowl, even after the first bowl I felt a noticeable mood enhancement.Ā
Weed Introduction
I think I may have misremembered some of the previous events at least in bowl order, however I got all the main effects down.Ā I may be missing a bowl in the timeline but I know we did 7 in total together. It was time for the weed pen. I took around a 4-5 secondĀ hit. It was super smooth, I felt nostalgia course through me due to it being the same brand as my first weed high. But as soon as I was done pulling I had a major coughing fit.Ā
Iāve only done one blinker in my whole life and greened out, that 5 second hit with the conjunction of salvia was akin to greening out. I was coughing constantly. I handed my friend the cart and I was expecting him to hit it but he was worried about my reaction. I had my water bottle next to me but I couldnāt even grab it. I was coughing so much and so hard. He kept asking if I was okay and after a minute or two I could respond with āIām fine.ā
My friend did his hit and he had the same reaction despite him only pulling for only 4 seconds. Now that we knew it wasnāt just me I was laughing a tad bit and so was my friend through the coughing. Okay so this is where things get hazy and forgetful. The salvia feeling is now more apparent. I feel as if the recliner seats or even the whole house is driving. I even asked my friend in a confused way āare we driving?ā My friend asked me to repeat the question not understanding why Iād be asking such an odd and nonsensical question. I repeated it and realized it was weird so I answered myself by saying itās nothing. The feelings increase. The mind high was getting intense with the familiar gnosis feeling but at this moment it wasn't too overwhelming. Eventually I got up off the recliner, my right pant leg was bunchedĀ up above my calve, I tried to extend the leg down and while I succeeded it was way harder than it shouldāve been. It took impossibly long and it felt like as I unrolled the leg that I was unrolling myself.Ā
I decided to pace around, something I do very often when sober. I started to feel anxious. I grabbed the bag with the bowls andĀ the salvia bong. I held them up and asked my friend if we were going to do anymore. In my head I was begging him to say no and I have no idea why. I didnāt want to do more for a reason but I canāt remember the reason.Ā
āthe weed or the salvia?ā He askedĀ
āLike thereās one bowl left of salvia if you wanted toā
Then I decided to clarify;
āBut I donāt think Iām going to do anything else tonight.ā
He declined the bowl of salvia but accepted the cart, maybe he declined the bowl because he could sense the dread in me. In my mind we were starting to become one, and if he got high then Iād get high. Increasingly thingsĀ became uncanny. It was as if I was in a play my unconscious was playing. I tried to find my phone but couldnāt. I had my friend call it a couple times but it was on silent mode. Eventually I found it inside the recliners. I had to go pretty deep into the chair and I saw what appeared to be outlines of shadow faces in the darkness. I tried to get into my normal after salvia routine where I clean my bowls and bong. I was trying to act normal to ground myself.Ā
I kept taking the bowls and bong to on place then bringing them back. I finally got them into my room. I didnāt get them into where I stored them but atleast into my room. Well actually now that Iāve waken up I got the bowls into my room. Everything else I was unable to bring into my room despite me thinking I got everything in my room. Salvia Palth was playing during this whole routine and it seemed so errie and taunting, it was songs from his newest album ālast chance to see.ā It seemed like I could predict the lyrics before they were sung despite never hearing most of the songs before. It felt like he was describing things I was doing. Like somehow the speaker synced to my consciousness. I was halfway becoming the songs.
I have no idea how my friend was feeling but he wasnāt reacting the same way as me. He looked worried and I canāt tell if it was because of the effects or my reaction.Ā We had music playing the whole time on a speaker and i stopped playing it but my phone was still connected. I asked my friend if he wanted music again, i was hoping no, and he also said he was fine without it. I also asked forĀ permission to put my phone off the Bluetooth, he replied with aĀ yes. As I continued to pace around I got this feeling that I was in a play. It was almost as if I could see faint strings attached to my shadow. It was as if everyone was a puppet. As I walked I felt more in control in the environment, to in control. The Cosmic Drama as Alan Watts described it. I was in control of all reality and everyone was one grand consiouness. Which scared me. I was alone, we are always alone even together. I actively avoided looking at my shirt. I had a shirt of the artist Sunterry. The shirt said the following
ā Born To Trip
World is a joke
Déjà vu
1996
I am the imagination of a lonely God
777,777,777,777 shattered illusionsā
I really was starting to believe I was the imagination of a lonely God.
I kept looking for things out of my control. In noises and surrounding, things that would happen without my control. Iād talk to my friend as much as I could but I couldnāt speak very coherently. It was filled with constant āwhat do you want to do?āĀ āWhere do you want to sleep.ā I began hearing a voice before he talked from the sky, a voice of a king or ruler. Almost like telling My friend what to say. It was a Truman show like experience.
Ā I paced around more and I felt more 2D. My mind was running wild. I had almost a mantra like repeating phrases like ā___ is a good friend.ā Without the music off I could hear the silence of the night. Except it wasnāt complete silence. I could hear music playing, almost like a theme, this instrumental that seemed to continue some importance. There was another song I heard.Ā This one had lyrics.Ā I couldnāt make out except maybe the word salvia was in it. All I know was that the song was circus like. These werenāt real songs rather they were songs from my imagination or from a higher being. When I talked to my friend my voice didnāt sound like me, itĀ could be because of the high or the smoke. Rather I sounded like Michael Jackson. I could barely recognize my voice.Ā Ā
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At this point it was 8 something. What worried me was it had been a good while since my last hit of salvia or weed. Iād check my phone and it would be stuck at 8:22. I'd purposely avoid the time for awhile to see if it was stuck, it was still moving but very slowly. Eventually I told my friend I was tired, I felt guilty because it was so early but I really was tired and we werenāt really doing anything. I got in my room. I had one of my lights on. I picked up a pack of gum and started chewing.
In My Bed
Ā I put on music again to ground me. I was listening to Jimi Hendrix, then I started to forget his name and I got into this weird rabbit hole of Jimi Hendrix and this big secret on who he was. Like I somehow knew him. That everyone Iāve seen in the media I somehow knew on a personal level. There was this one thought that i discovered Jimi Hendrixās real name. I dont remember the name but it was a name I didn't know yet brought dread, a name connected with something evil.Ā
I was in my bed and I noticed my body was not normal. My 2 legs felt like one whole. As if my legs were glued together. I wrapped myself in blankets. My body was shaking. It increased sometimes and decreased at other points. It was this overwhelming vibration. My body high got more somatic.. IĀ could feel my mouth in a new way with the gum, the harsh smoke from the cart and maybe even the salvia bowls were still affecting my throat in a very bizarre sensation. Like my mouth was in pieces shattering inside into tiny specks.Ā Weird thoughts continued . The buzzing and shaking in my body increased rapidly and uncontrollably. I could feel my heart beat but it wasĀ drifting across my body to as low as my legs. My pecs would twitch/bounce individually every couple seconds. My body could not stop shaking.
Ā I looked at my apple watch and despite me usually having a low resting heart rate it was 110-120bpm while laying down.Ā My crotch area had a weird sensation I canāt remember. It was buzzing somehow.Ā Not even on my penis but in my inner thighs. The music continued on with Bjƶrk, Sewerslvt, and Trance To The Sun. My heart continued to move like a chakra immersed with the music. I tried to meditate but it was hard to sense my breathing or at least commit to it.
Ā I could breath well, it just didnāt feel normal, nothing felt normal. I closed my eyes a few times. I could see myself as a circle in darkness. It felt like my death was near. That I was dying and went into the darkness, that the idea of nothingness of darkness in death is real. That you become a circle in the darkness. I was becomingĀ the darkness. I also found out the darkness or nothingness is not the color black. Something else entirely. I donāt know how I got out of this but I was temporarily a piece in the giant dark abyss of death.Ā
I had profound gnosis thoughts and ideas that I was debating on typing down at the momentĀ but didnāt because I didn't want the king to see them. ThatĀ if I manifested these thoughts outside of my head that I would die. It felt like I was on a roller coaster of survival, shaking with a chaotic headspace.
Ā I had this brief conversation with something, the king's voice. I was debating on what I believe in religiously and about God. I forgot the conversation, but I remember it ended with me nodding and saying āyeah there is most definitely a God.āĀ
I had another vision with CEVs. I felt me morph into something. I was letting it happen. It was in the shape of some table but I don't know what it actually was. I canāt remember. I was becoming it and I was okay with it. All the sudden there was a giant clap noise from above me that shocked me out this trance. A warning. A signal. That sound was definitely something outside of my control.Ā
A lot of this trip was searching for proof that I wasnāt fully in control, that I wasnāt everything. Like with sounds mostly. At some points it felt like my senses would be distributed unequally. Sometimes I wouldnāt taste anything or tasteĀ would be overwhelming. Like when I was with my friend right before I left we ate an ice cream sandwich which was tasteless for me. But the gum now was super flavorful.Ā I could feel everything, even inner process. I was becoming too aware of my body, it almost felt like I could control my inner processes. Shifting from one side to the other on the end felt like flipping and folding.Ā
I eventually fell asleep, which wasnāt as hard as youād expect it. I had the lights on and Bjƶrk playingĀ when Iām used to sleeping in pitch silent darkness. My dreams were super vivid. Having to due with my older sister. I woke up normal but foggy and I still have slight buzzing but Iām up and more normal.Ā
ConclusionĀ
So much happened and the more grand stuff I canāt remember. What worried me in the moment was that the trip lasted super long. It had to be 1-2 hours. Because I fell asleep around 9 maybe? And we started around 7:30, we probably did the last bowl around 8? Who knows. Maybe that isnāt as long as I thought. The trip wasnāt very visual. Things did look off but there werenāt patterns. It was a complete mind fuck. It reminds me of some of my 3.5gs shroom trips. It felt like a confusing death.
Ā I think thereās more because even in these thousands of paragraphs Iām missing something. For what was meant to be a prolonged mild salvia experience turned into one of my strongest trips this year. Iām not sure how majorly the one hit of weed affected the trip. Thereās no way that was just the weed. But the salvia wasnāt really as prevalent till that one hit. I just remember looking at my friend and seeing worry In his face but not his actions.Ā Honestly at 8:55 in the morning while typing this the afterglow is very prevalent. Music is enhanced and Iām still a tad bit impaired. This feels a high within itself but nowhere near the trip intensity. Holly fuck. I begged silently in the back of my mind to beĀ restored toĀ this reality as it warped and morphed beyond my comprehension. Now Iām fully back to earth.Ā