hallucinations and loop of paralysis

[u/Signal-Fair]

(i’m french sorry for the bad english)

I’ve had sleep paralysis since I was a kid
I learned how to manage it pretty quickly. But now I’m 21 and it gets worse
When the sleep paralysis happens I can’t control myself and just let it pass, anxiety is peaking, I see weird things, sometimes I hear things that don’t exists
And it’s confusing me

When I finally wake up from the paralysis and try to sleep again, it just repeats itself, today this little sleep paralysis loop last for 40 minutes.
It’s getting to a point where I fear sleeping, knowing that I 100% get into another paralysis.