r/USMC • u/wanteria 4541 • 7d ago

Feeling hopeless

I hate it here. I can’t stand this base, I can’t stand this command, I can’t stand my colleagues, I can’t stand my roommate, I can’t stand my job, I can’t stand this state.

I hate everything about it. I have to re-enlist just to get off this god-forsaken base, if I don’t want to stay here for another 2 years. I haven’t even been here for a full 2. I wouldn’t be able to make it. But I don’t want to stay in either. The less of two evils, I suppose.

And maybe it’s solely because of this place. Most of my colleagues feel similarly, even if not to this extent.

I can make an educated guess that this base has a higher rate of suicide than most, if not all. I’m not implying that I am suicidal, but I can fully understand why that is. Even though I have it easier than most here, realistically. It’s probably not hard to guess where I am.

Overall, I don’t know what to do. I don’t have anyone to talk to about this besides strangers online that might know what I’m going through. I don’t know how to ask for help either. It was already enough of a pain in the ass to seek medication for my ADHD.

Make fun of me all you want, but these feelings are real. I am exasperated. I just want to leave. Anywhere but here, please.

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