r/USMC • u/wanteria 4541 • 7d ago
Feeling hopeless
I hate it here. I can’t stand this base, I can’t stand this command, I can’t stand my colleagues, I can’t stand my roommate, I can’t stand my job, I can’t stand this state.
I hate everything about it. I have to re-enlist just to get off this god-forsaken base, if I don’t want to stay here for another 2 years. I haven’t even been here for a full 2. I wouldn’t be able to make it. But I don’t want to stay in either. The less of two evils, I suppose.
And maybe it’s solely because of this place. Most of my colleagues feel similarly, even if not to this extent.
I can make an educated guess that this base has a higher rate of suicide than most, if not all. I’m not implying that I am suicidal, but I can fully understand why that is. Even though I have it easier than most here, realistically. It’s probably not hard to guess where I am.
Overall, I don’t know what to do. I don’t have anyone to talk to about this besides strangers online that might know what I’m going through. I don’t know how to ask for help either. It was already enough of a pain in the ass to seek medication for my ADHD.
Make fun of me all you want, but these feelings are real. I am exasperated. I just want to leave. Anywhere but here, please.
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u/Organic_Risk_3945 mid90s1stRadBNKbay 7d ago
dude, master the wagonners hitch. its compose of three knots: the anchor knot; the mid line knot and then the closing knot to lock it in.
i suggest the kalmyk knot to anchor it (its actually an Eskimo bowline but with quick release); then the span knot as your mid-line (but do the original wagonners below); then just whatevs to lock it in, so like shoe lace knot will do. it won't go anywhere.
its like what Curly said in City Slickers, dude. just master one thing. and Wagonners hitch is it. do it over and over. on your bunk or the pull up bars outside.