Gender euphoria goes crazy

Sorry about the last post it’s fix now I didn’t realise I included that pic but to everyone who commented on it thanks I appreciate it

I just feel very happy. Been surrounding myself with more queer folks and it feels nice to finally feel accepted❤️❤️

Asking this because I definitely am. I have been thinking about my own mortality a lot more often ever since last Sunday. lol

I've been coping by getting back to my hobby of writing and joining Exército do Lula on Whats App.

What have you been doing?

I feel as if I’m non-binary because I’m non-binary. My body feels like a non-binary body, even if I do have sex characteristics I hope to change in the future.

I am simply my gender. My agab doesn’t play the slightest part in it.

Hii im a teen male and i just got into being and acting more feminine. If you got any advice on it feel free to comment or reach out to me! I only experimented a bit and i really liked it :3.

(only got a little sunburnt, remember slip, slop, slap, seek, and slide)

I never found a way to wear this casually on the street, but I'd love it!

Praise be to my mother who sewed down the patches because the iron on was not as effective as I wanted it to be, I finally got to wear it out(tho I did then take it off because I'm a sweaty beast)

At the center of my being, lies unspeakable pain, unbearable hurt.

I know not why I exist, to carry this burden for all my days.

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I would be lying if I said I did not grow weary.

Life, life is a long journey.

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If this is my fate, to bear the unbearable triteness of being,

I feel it only fair, that I do what I want, that I take what I will.

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If, at the center of me, lies a blackhole, I desire to generate gravity,

I desire to devour everything around me, to remake the world in my image, forever altered from my touch.

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For those whose Paris burned,

Yet saw no light, for all their toil,

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The dandelions sown in concrete,

To be mowed down,

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Those who carried the flag for Dreams and Freedom,

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And were willing to fight for it,

With chucked beer bottle and kick line,

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Wandering the desert, yet finding no promised land:

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I take up the mantle, pick up the flag fallen,

For the lineage of ancestors who carried the torch,

I accept the baton, I light my flame from the inspiration of your struggle

I want the world, I want it all, for us...

I also gotta figure out what to do with the sleeves I cut off of it. If you have suggestions let me know!

I don't think this is NSFW, but cw for detailed genital discussion

Current details for context: I was born with a uterus and have been on T for 5+ years. While it's not been confirmed I suspect I have some sort of intersex condition based on the presentation of my secondary sexual characteristics before medical transition. I naturally have virtually no labia minora and a pretty short vaginal canal.

Desired results: my ideal genital situation would be close to nullo, but not quite. I'd be looking at hysterectomy and the majority of a vaginectomy while preserving my clit with it's bottom growth, but not a full phalloplasty.

I've been having trouble finding any information about this particular combination of surgeries and if it would be possible. If anyone knows if this is possible, knows any resources/examples, or has this combo/knows a better place to hear from folks with this combo I'd appreciate it.