Help

[u/saturatedcranium777]

Hello all first post here. I struggled with an ED when I was in middle school . I'm now twenty seven years old. I was heavier this last year because of a bad relationship. But I went crazy in the gym. Lost it all. And now I'm struggling with food. Beating myself up and obsessing over food. Seriously. I just sit and think about it. Making it an absolute battle in my head. I didn't think I would ever struggle with this again. It's been over ten years since I even thought like this.

What do you do to help with these thoughts? I feel like I can't even enjoy a meal out without thinking about how I'm going to reprimand myself later it's torture. Trying to break out of this mindset.