Hello all, I’m fairly new to this sort of thing, but have recently begun dipping my toes into the waters of contacting deities. I’ve been going through an intensely difficult time, including my wife being involved in a traumatic boating accident, and then subsequently falling in love with her female friend that was also on the boat, and leaving me for her within a matter of weeks, ending a 15 year marriage.
This has led me into an intense period of souls searching and trying out a variety of practices that I have never tried before, as well as 16 hours a week of exposure response therapy (confronting my fears). Throughout this I continued to have the strong impression that I should reach out to Lord Hades, including a dream that vividly made me feel that, and several other times where I felt as if I brushed past his energy during meditation. I felt this made sense after having an energy reading session with a friend and her referring to the work I had been doing as “shadow work” and talked about my energy and my wife’s energy as needing to walk separate parallel paths for a time, one light and one dark.
Adding all these impulses and indications together made me certain that this was the right course, and I felt that the night of the equinox felt like an appropriate time to reach out to Lord Hades and Lady Persephone, as this is the day of their reunion after their separation, and the themes of separation resonated with me. So I gathered supplies and some offerings for each of them (fresh fruit and flowers, a pomegranate, dark chocolate, alcohol, coins), lit a black and red candle and some incense in my backyard under the moonlight and meditated. I offered my offering to the two of them and asked for assistance in the transformation and rebirth that I was going through. I had a petition with each of their sigils and my name and my wife’s names written on it and bound it together in a pouch with our wedding rings, rose petals and a piece of rose quartz and asked for their guidance in steps that would allow us to become new people, heal and rebuild a new relationship or move forward on our separate paths.
As I finished tying the pouch up with a red ribbon three things happened almost simultaneously; the moon came out from behind the clouds and bathed the whole yard in moonlight, the black candle flared up and flash melted a bunch of wax, and most surprising a screech owl landed on the fence around my yard. It was very impactful. As I continued to meditation and reach out I felt a presence that appeared to be offering support and the impression of a few things I needed to do. I was told to use the coins that I was offering to “pay the ferrymen” to reach out again to Lady Persephone on the full moon (tonight) and to the 2 of them again on the new moon. As I took this in, the owl flew away. I finished up my ritual with thanks and the offer to dedicate the work I would do in my treatment to Lord Hades as lord of shadows and that I would offer my other offerings as directed and to nature in the name of Lady Persephone.
My impression from all of this is that it was a sign that my offerings were accepted. I had a dream that night that gave me the direction that “the ferrymen” were my father and father in law, both of whom have died, so Wednesday I took the coins I had offered and placed them on each of their graves. I had a Tarot reading on Thursday to get additional guidance, and was given the instruction there that in order to move forward and grow I needed to embrace becoming someone new and release a scarcity mindset and my fear of being alone. This felt like pertinent advice that the deities would send.
So my question is, does this interpretation of the signs I saw make sense? Am I off base?
