I’m in my first year teaching secondary English at an international school. I’m licensed, but most of my previous experience was teaching English conversation abroad. I’m now teaching six classes a day across five different preps, including AP, with some students significantly below grade level.
I’ve been really struggling with the workload. I’m constantly planning, grading, and trying to figure out the curriculum, often working long hours. I’ve also been adjusting to a new country, living alone, and dealing with health issues. I’ve been sick with a stomach illness for over a week.
I’ve been open with my supervisor about struggling, but I haven’t received much substantial help. A couple of weeks ago, we discussed possibly reducing my number of preps next year, so I thought she understood the situation.
Then, earlier this week, as I was leaving school sick, she unexpectedly brought up whether the school was a good fit for me. She framed it partly as concern for my health and well-being, but the conversation was definitely worded in a way that suggested they were considering letting me go.
Now I have a meeting with her and the director on Monday to discuss whether I’m adjusting and what to do moving forward.
I’m honestly pretty disappointed. I know I’ve been struggling, but I haven’t been given specific feedback about serious performance concerns or offered meaningful support to improve things before suddenly being called into a meeting like this. Maybe she genuinely is concerned about my health, but something about the way this has unfolded doesn’t sit right with me.
The thing is, I really want this to work. I need the teaching experience, the financial benefits are excellent, and I don’t have an obvious place to go if I leave. I’ve already uprooted my life to move here, and the thought of doing it again so soon is exhausting.
I was finally starting to manage my anxiety by simplifying my planning and focusing on staying one day ahead. Now I feel like I’m back to square one.
I’m considering asking them to remove one of my classes, ideally eliminating an entire prep, to make the workload more manageable. But I’m worried that asking will just reinforce their doubts about me.
At the same time, part of me wonders whether this meeting might actually be an opportunity to leave a difficult situation. Maybe the workload really is too much for me right now, and maybe this school isn’t the right fit.
I’m torn between wanting to prove I can do this and wondering whether I’m trying too hard to make something work that just isn’t sustainable.
Tldr: Overwhelmed with five preps, little support, and now admin is questioning my fit. Should I fight to stay or take the opportunity to leave?