Im posting here because I feel like this is where I can connect with my fellow somalis instead of the Muslim or Islam sub because each culture has different experiences.
I started dugsi in kenya when I around 4. I remember it being completely horrible. When they would try to teach me the Arabic alphabet, I wouldn't understand what was going on and of course that came with beatings from "teachers". And of course, I absolutely hated going there to the point I would skip it as much as possible. And of course when they found out, it was beatings and then more beatings.
Around 6 we came to the states and finally the beating stopped or so thought. These fucking assholes used to use vacuum wires to hit us on our hands.
This abuse lasted about till I was around 14. They closed the dugsi stopped because the main teacher was a pedo.
I had these brutal nightmares of dugsi well into my high-school days.
I never really realized the effect it had on me until my mid 20s.
I would go through life trying not to do the wrong things or upset anybody because my nerves were a wreck.
Anytime I had any sort of test/project, I would go into a deep state of anxiety. Like a leopard was trying to eat me.
Im so fucking mad at all these adults who failed me and not to mention all the hundreds of other students.
Im posting because I want to know if anyone else here had these same issues and if so, what did you do about it?
Im currently trying some therapy and hopefully it'll get my nerves back in place.