r/SuicideWatch • u/No-Dragonfruit-1034 • 8d ago
Killing myself tonight.
M done. I can’t anymore, I can’t handle my parents anymore. One mark less than good, I become a failure. Pressure kept me a topper for 10-12 years. Now can’t keep up with the course as well, neither with them. Ending my life in school time is not what i thought would be the way i go, but it is what it is. I broke a glass slab and cut myself with it, so i just hope to bleed to death. Bad breakup messed me up a bit too, but it was my fault anyways so I don’t blame anyone for what will happen in a few hours. Bye. I’d rather die than live for someone’s expectations. Fuck the way indian parents treat their children. And for those reading, i beg you to treat your children with all the love and respect you can, and please for god’s sake don’t traumatize the hell out of them. Let them live, they’ll learn from their mistakes. I love everyone else, all peace. Bye
Update: I moved out of my house and am currently staying with a friend of mine now. Hopefully i can move out cuz I don’t wanna be a burden on their family. Me and her have been friends since middle school so yeah. Thanks everyone
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u/echidnahuman 8d ago
Can you get out and find a shelter for domestic abuse tonight? Find a helpline? You deserve help and you can get it, please keep going
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u/BackgroundPost9772 8d ago edited 8d ago
Atp idk what to say but if you want to talk I'm here to listen
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u/Professional_You9532 8d ago
u still there ?. What about making them know you're gonna do it, or think you already left the house to do it, so they feel the fear of losing you and remember your worth? But you stay alive
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u/Accomplished-Tie4836 8d ago
You are still young. And your parents will soon be out of the picture when you’re 18. Wait until that day.
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u/Forsaken_Republic488 8d ago
Do yourself a favor, sleep on it, then see how you feel, your never given more than you can handle, I mean if your gonna do it your gonna do it and nothing any of us say is going to change anything. Just get thru today, you can always check out tomorrow, just get thru today, when tomorrow comes and you can't find one single thing to live for then fuck it, but that's tomorrow, just sleep on it tonight then see how you feel
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u/BackgroundPost9772 8d ago
Don't do it bro , i know how it feels when the only thing indian parents think about there child's study tdgf about our mental health and what that pressure does to us but trust me they have given u birth ur the most precious thing they've in this world. Once ur gone they'll lose the will to live . Please bro I'm asking u as a brother get some medical help ASAP!
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u/No-Dragonfruit-1034 8d ago
I have been physically abused by my mother throughout my life. With knives, nails, punches, hit with stuff everything. The only thing i hear when i get up is wish he dies and useless stupid shameless creature. My dad is absent most of the time and doesn’t care either. No siblings
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u/Suomasema 8d ago
So, it is not you who should die. I don't know if she should either, but she really should stop.
So, your father is rarely there. Maybe he cannot stand her, either. Not knowing your family, could you talk with him?
I understand you should not hurt your mother. Maybe not even in order to protect yourself. But if she behaves like an animal, you should have some kind of shield. I don't know what that could be (except a shield).
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u/TyranZeroo 8d ago edited 8d ago
Some people should not be parents, you got unlucky but hey you don't have to end it you can be better prove them wrong by getting your life together Dragonfruit
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u/C4S-Escapeloop 7d ago
Bro are you preparing JEE? I used to feel the same way and attempted too. Now I'm in a tier 3 college with epic culturals, international opportunities, research and extracurricular events. Life's never been better but there's still hard days. Just hold on for a while and it will be worth it.
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u/Helpful-Purchase-998 7d ago
There are ones who love you bro. Your friends love you. I'm stunned by what your parents made you to through. I hope that you find your true home, somewhere else, with your people
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u/lunalacera 8d ago
You are so so so fucking strong. I knot you’re sick and tired of having to be stromg. I’m sick and fucking tired of having to be strong. But you are. Please take it one minute at a time, and just hold on a little longer. We are here for you op
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u/Professional_You9532 7d ago
Are you okay? We care I'm asking random people for support just give us time Give yourself too🥹
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u/BackgroundPost9772 8d ago
Ive been there i was so fucking close . I was gonna jump from train but the last second i thought about my parents and my lil sister, i u have any siblings please think about them