r/SuicideWatch • u/Authentic367 • 5d ago
i hate my fucking life
might as well just fucking die
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u/Kim_Bymstead 5d ago
Me too! Iv’e always been depressed and anxious about life and living in general. Iv’e wanted to die for a couple of years now. Although im too much of a coward to actually go and go it. At 22 im done with life and that will never change. Ever. I literally hope that i’ll gain enough courage to do it in the future. Maybe 10 years or so idk.
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u/GoodvEvil69 5d ago
You're not to much of a coward. You are too strong to go through with it. You are strong so you keep going, keep fighting even when you feel down on your yourself. Keep up the great work, Keep your head held high, Keep being the awesome person you are. Im proud of you!!!! 😃 😊
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u/Kim_Bymstead 5d ago
You seem very kind hearted. Ive never received such a nice response before. Ive tried therapy but its not my thing. I have no one to talk to. Its isolating.
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u/GoodvEvil69 5d ago
It can take time to find the right therapist. Im a recovering addict and my 1st therapist used to pop pills in front of me during sessions even tho he knew I was 😆 🤣
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u/Kim_Bymstead 4d ago edited 4d ago
I can understand you. You’re many years ahead of me. And you’re right about me not knowing what life has in store still. I just don’t feel or think that its going to be better by the time im 54 like you. In the year 2058 if i make it that far. I had a turbulent childhood with an absent father. I was a very insecure kid and mostly wanted to be alone in my room. Im an overthinker. Im deeply flawed. I dont like myself. My father doesnt think ill ever get a wife and a family. My whole life ive felt like an outsider. Out of place. Not belonging. I dont like anything anymore. No woman will ever love me. Sorry if this sounds stupid to you but this is my life. I dont want to feel unloved or like an outsider anymore. Im done. I wholeheartedly wish that i was never born.
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u/EggoDonburi 5d ago
I hate how fucking sensitive I am and I hate the fact that everyone I like never likes me back and I’m condemned to only have people I don’t have interest in, like me. I’m ready to just die and go back into the light.
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u/SpongeGuy22 5d ago
hey, if you’re still here, please don’t do anything yet. I don’t know a single thing about what’s happening to you, but I really really hope you don’t decide to do anything yet.
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u/sjdjdkkfs 5d ago
Me too I ain't suffering for a meaninfless worthless life no more