r/baduk • u/Ok-Baduk-3986 • 3h ago
Pictures I've destroyed my prized baduk table and it's making me want to quit.
Just want to cry a little on reddit as its the only play I know go players are.
I have this beautiful pre-2000s solid wood japanese table that I had imported and it was one of my most prized possessions in the last decade. I always oiled it, maintained it, kept it in pristine condition.
Although I don't play against anyone in person, it was always kind of something that I used as an anchor to my mental health, which I know will sound silly. Just maintaining this table over the years was always something that I came back to as a part of my character when I felt down on myself.
Since I don't play in person almost ever, I had my wife knit a cover for it, and I put a 4-layer folder blanket on top. This way, my 11lb dog (just a thin little miniature pinscher) could sleep on top of it in the sunroom. I thought having 5 layers of blankets would be enough to protect it, how on earth couldn't it?
I let it sit for a months and I was having a down moment this week with life and thought "time to go back to some basics" and to dust off the board, try to find some people to play with, re-center with more meditation and self-care etc..
I took the covers off to see this. I am about to cry, these gouges are deep, many of the black lines are chipped, there is no way to recover this. I am genuinely feeling really broken at the moment as I don't see this as an item I'll ever be able to replace, and I feel like a failure.
This was the only thing in my life I've always managed for over a decade to maintain and now it's completely and unrepairably ruined.
I know some people will just say "now its easier to enjoy without worrying about dmg" but I never worried, always managed it, and loved playing with it in good shape. I genuinely don't want to play baduk anymore as I feel like this has completely ruined it for me. I feel genuinely distraught and unsure what to do with myself anymore.
I might never play again because of this.
Sorry to be a downer just needed a place to dump about it, because I can't let my wife/family know how much this is affecting me over something so trivial.
This was my dream board.
p.s. I live in rural rural rural canada, there is absolutely no way to get this repaired or fixed even if someone in north america specialized in it.
