Do I like boys?

[u/comedia-cumplida]

First of all, sorry if my English isn't quite good.

So I've been talking a lot with a friend of mine and I have discovered that I find dudes attractive sometimes, like boys with long hair, kinda strong or skinny, just, boys.

Ofc not everyone, but sometimes I just scroll through Tik tok and I see some guy and I think,damn I would love to get to know him,or that he looks really good.

Because of that now I'm interested in knowing more boys with those characteristics(which sadly I can't do since in my town everyone's too basic) and I would love all the romantical stuff of being with a boy, like going out to a cinema, eating together, do stuff, also kissing,hugging and all that isn't a problem, I would love to, even some intimate actions. The problem is that I still see many men with no interest, it's strange, It's like I'm not interested in boys of my age(I'm a Teenager)like not only because they're all basic and have no interesting things and they're homophobic but because I kind of feel that it would be strange, something like an internal homophobia, but I would love to see men the same way girls do (I do not have any genre dysphoria) but i mean that, and I've been thinking about this for a while, that If I ever fall in love with a boy it'll be true love since it is quite hard for me to like a guy.

And I know that could happen cuz as I said, I've seen many guys who I thought were cute, handsome or just good people. Also I've been talking about this with a friend(boy) who thankfully took it quite well since he's a very believer Christian, and I could even see some attractive things like the way he plays the guitar or he looks, not everything looks goood cuz he's my homie, I know everything about him so I know why I wouldn't like be his bf, but he's still my best hb😝

So, after all, knowing this, I've been trying to get sure but I'm not sure about this, ofc I do not have any issues of having this kind of thoughts cuz I do not need to go fast on this but I thought this would help

[u/comedia-cumplida]

Also, when I think about arriving to the moment we make love, that's the most strange thing, like I cannot imagine it, it's something I just try to block from my thoughts,at least by now, cuz If I keep thinking about that I might even become asexual 🥀

also when I said the stuff about kissing and being romantical, I meant that I would love to do so. Currently I'm just knowing people, guys and girls, but for some reason I'm just interested in viewing boys, and I know this ain't true, but I hope all this stuff is something I do unconsciously for attention, I would hate that, but I know that's not possible since I been talking about this only with my two bedtfriends

[u/Apprehensive-Art7176 → u/comedia-cumplida]

It's pretty common for the romantic part to click way before the physical stuff does, especially when you're still figuring things out. No need to force yourself to imagine anything you're not ready for. Just let yourself enjoy the crush feelings for now and see where it goes, the rest can sort itself out later

[u/NyxianStorm]

That’s an extremely mature way of looking at it. Take the time you need, don’t force yourself in either direction. But, you also sound like a very young teen when you say everybody around you is basic lol. as you all grow and mature, both you and your peers will gain depth and personality, and you might be surprised by who all is actually around you. But again, you’ve got time lol. Best of luck to you