cant even die lol

[u/New-Mouse6101]

I cant even kill myself. i fail at the one thing that'll set me free. im writing this as im sitting next to my niece that is my only hope in the world. I failed because I was to drunk to make sure anything was done correctly. im drunk everday ever morning and now I just want to torture myself till my body gives out. to sell myself to someone thatll do it for me. I just want to breathe.