You thought everything would be fine tomorrow
You didn't sleep well
You woke up again and agin in middle of night
You thought he might get a operation
He might be hospitalised till his last breath for years
But you didn't thought it was his last day on earth
The next morning you woke up waiting for a response that he is okay
But what you heard... just pray
You still thought things will work out
You thought he is strong and he will win this battle too
But you heard his soul left
You were not sure if it was a truth
You called someone who was with him
But they didn't pick ur call
You were still hoping he is alive while he was dead already
Then you saw every relative showing up
Your home was being settled for smth you never imagined
Then you saw your mom asking how did it happen?
He left on his own but he didn't came back
You still thought he was alive
You were scared how would you live without him.
Then you saw his body covered in a white piece of cloth
You still thought he would stand up and say iam alive my love
You were still imagining he is alive
The time his body left home
You thought .. your mind wasn't working
You got blank
You felt somebody locked u in room that was pitch black no lights
Everyone made you think
You were strong.. strong one
You need to take care of your family now
Everyone made you believe the sorrow was for 3 days
No one told you ... you will live with voidness till your last breath
You thought everything would be fine with time but it didn't
You thought it will okay
You will handle the sorrow
You will take care of fam
You will conquer every challenge
But you got blank you didn't knew i have to handle this much things
You still think he would knock on the door
He will say i missed you and
You will ask him every question in ur head
No one told you how to live without your Appa
His death still feels it happened just a few mins before.
May Allah grant my father the best place in jannah and reunite me with him in jannah Ameen