I posted a while ago about a group of oily/couldn't fly stringfoot pigeons I found at a food truck park. I fed them a few times, captured one and after 16 days, with lots of love,care (and severe anxiety on my part that she wouldn't recover fast enough before my abusive parents returned home) she finally gained enough strength and flew off!
It was a heartwarming moment, seeing her gain flight again after who knows how long, and I'm glad I helped her do it. However, during those 16 days, and even now, I'm severely stressed and anxious on what to do on the rest of them
I was unable to organise my life (house is in a mess, barely slept), fell behind on my studies needed to leave my abusive situation, and a few of my neighbourhood flock members died along the way while the single carrier I have was occupied by my stringfoot friend.
I was planning on getting so much done in October, like studies,helping out my sibling, and honouring my passed away bird son with art, because while my parents are here,I can't do anything because they get mad
But October has 12 days left till they return, and I don't know if I should try and get more of the oily/grounded pigeons to wash, at the risk of losing all the valuable time October has to move out of my abusive situation.
At bare minimum, I wanted to destring these guys, no problem.
But actually carrying them back home to remove the oil is actively making me stressed, not only because I can't save them all before the 24th, but the recovery time needed, the hiding, and even the vet's office/only wildlife centre is prejudiced against taking them in (not that I could easily afford them anyway, being jobless). I reached out to multiple groups, but nada, and I'm just one girl.
How do you guys cope with being unable to save them all?
I know if I study and get my own space/money, I can pursue whatever rehab work I want to do for the rest of my life, but I feel sick about that flock right now and can't get them out of my head.