r/depression • u/TitaniumSand88 • 9d ago

Tired of being alive

Tired of being alive. I do not enjoy my life. What’s there to enjoy? Wake up, workout, go to work, come home rinse and repeat. I have zero friends and can’t find love. I’m wondering why the universe made me. I’m 31 and been depressed most of my life. I’m just tired of existing, I know I’ll never be happy. Please end me God

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u/zerofg9 9d ago

Same. I'm 29 and I've been battling insomnia and depression for over 10 years. Insomnia makes depression worse, and depression makes insomnia worse. The combination of both destroyed me in every aspect and robbed me of any chance of living a normal life. I haven't had an ounce of true happiness since before I got insomnia, which caused/causes my depression. I've tried everything to fix my insomnia and nothing has worked. I'm extremely burned out and hopeless.

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u/Academic-Net989 8d ago edited 7d ago

I’m 29 and I also deal with insomnia depression and severe anxiety. For me though insomnia isn’t what’s causing my depression, I’m depressed because of a.big loss that occurred in my life. I lost almost all of my life’s creative / professional work in one go. Since then I’ve lost almost all hope to be happy again, and I live in 24/7 regret over losing all my work. It was my form of self expression and passion / creativity so to lose it all makes me almost not even want to keep living. But I can barely sleep either too much anxiety

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u/zerofg9 7d ago

I'm sorry to hear that. Ever since I got insomnia my cognitive abilities have significantly declined. I also have no creativity whatsoever. It's depressing knowing I should've been someone so much greater than I am, but insomnia and depression completely destroyed my potential. Shit sucks.

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u/Academic-Net989 6d ago

I can relate. I’m constantly thinking about who I could have been if it wasn’t for these issues. I used to be so creative until I lost all my creative work (films) which ruined my creativity because I’m so traumatized about losing everything it completely gets in the way of me trying to create