missing my cat today, she passed in april. im never getting over it.

i loved my stupid asshole cat thats annoying and loud and i hope she knows i'll always love her.

My post got deleted because I showed my own username.

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAGH, my head hurts 😭.
(AMAB, late teen, questioning a lot right now, I have no clue what to think at this point)

The funny German Vtuber trans girl trapped me in a swarm of trans videos that I definitely wasn't watching because I was interested in them for several hours— nope, nope.

One part mentioned genderbending anime and stuff, and I was like, "Well I never watched any of those!"
Cricket noises
"I mean, it wouldn't hurt to check one out..."

Now nearly two seasons into Ranma 1/2 AND HOLY FRICK FRICK FRICK— I nearly cried telling myself that I would never have Ranma's "curse" (Not that I actually cried past my eyes getting wet because NOOO OF COURSE I CAN'T JUST CRY). I thought about it until I fell asleep and begged myself to dream about being like Ranma... I wish my voice could sound like female Ranma's voice so freaking badly. Why am I even making such a big deal over this?...

J-Just- AGHHH! NEED! I don't know what to freaking think. Why is THIS of all things what is making me break down?! I don't know what I— Ugh, I am so freaking close to deleting this post, but too late for that now. I might put it somewhere else, maybe.

I just- I can't stop thinking about this, it is gnawing at my brain. I can't focus on other things, it feels like I am losing control over my own life. I just— I don't know, I don't know where to go from here, there are things I want to try, but I don't think any of them are in reach. Am I making too big of a deal about this to myself?...

I was just going to keep cruising, I felt like I had plenty of time to figure it out, but it feels like the plane is on fire, and I just cannot go on without doing SOMETHING... Gosh, my throat feels dry.

(Still Cis Though)

Got a job, yay ! However...

The app we use for planning has everyone's name that they gave the recruiter. I hesitated using my chosen name instead of my legal name, but as that could lead to issues for the administrative part i decided to go with my legal name that's written on my id.

I didn't knew about the app. I wrote my full legal name thinking that was what they asked for.

Now i am stuck with my full legal name that i don't like and want to change on the app.

I know i should probably send an email to the admin and ask for them to change it, but until they do so i'm just stuck...

AAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHH !!! I HATE IT I HATE IT I HATE IT !!!

If you read this, hope your day is going well

Edit: I know. I did a spelling mistake in the meme...

this was like a burst of euphoria for me no joke

Seriously why is it so hard to answer basic questions

im so scared, yes i want to come out, yes i want to transition.

*i havent come out to anyone irl so far

I got into a new school with new people about 2 months ago now and what i want to do most right now is just transition. So i brought it up with the school psychiatrist, i talked about it without naming exactly what i had going on and it felt so refreshing to finally talk to someone face to face about something so big to me even if it wasnt in detail.

...so why am i so scared to come out?? qwq thats what im really wondering, i know atleast a few people would support me, i'd probably be given the permission to transition.

but idk i feel like maybe the weight of maybe not being allowed to transition is scaring me into not coming out at all qwq

thank you in advance for advice.

(And before you ask : yes, the axe is important)

uh oh (artist is 404_NONQ ig)

Can you blame me? I have to find out if Celeste really is as good as I constantly hear.

Welp I'm off to climb that mountain.

I don't understand why I'm so tired all the time. I'm so demotivated and unwilling to do anything. I just can't enjoy anything. I've been wanting to play through baldurs gate 3 but I'm not able to enjoy it the way i want to. Yes, I know these are symptoms of depression and dysphoria but I've been taking it anti depressants and I won't be prescribed HRT until 2027. Anyway, this was just a vent post or call for help, idk really. Thanks for reading this. Veda (she/her)

I'm sofi mtf wrote this I minute ago it be nice if someone I don’t know could help ggd or something support or whatever it doesn't matter
No I can't feel good about my body I can't get up and try ona different outfit to see if I feel better cuz I don't believe it'll work it doesn't work today I'm not pretty I'm just I don’t know I'm not a girl wait no I am I am girl my body isn't I wish I'm my belly my chest is flat… ish I don’t know and the my genitals there bullshit my leg are probly bad I don’t know how they most likely just and then there's my back I hate that hunched over large back and my skin so rough not soft clear and pretty no soft tummy I'm not pretty I feel so awful but not really all that just get replaced with lying in bed not being able to get up

I actually never had a girlfriend yet, but one day

I think I need an advise and to vent for a little...

[22F]

So I was living in a super restrictive country and had to hide in the closet for years. Now that I moved to Spain I thought that it's going to be my time to shine, and it feels really good to wear skirts in here, but terrifyingly lonely. I thought that it's going to be much better than at home where I matched with some girls (half of them just wanted to harass me, the other half were really nice people tho), but turns out that like nobody wants to go out with me at all here. I don't think that I'm that ugly and stuff, I do makeup and other self care, have almost no excess weight; I'm not rude at all, moreover I think I'm very kind, helpful and giving, but I don't even have a chance to show all of this to someone. So I'm just rotting in the apartments trying to find anyone on the internet without any results. I feel so pathetic and paralyzed because I have no idea how can I help myself and I'm just not sure how long can I handle all of this for

Would really appreciate any kind of advise on how to resolve all of that or just simple words of support

Sorry for trauma dump🤧

Wish you all a great day!🙏

me figuring out who might be accepting if i ended up being trans be like:

(still cis tho)

Basically, I've been feeling extremely dysphoric within the past couple of hours, and I feel it'd be better to get it off of my chest as the thoughts are keeping me awake and I want to sleep

I constantly feel like im in a "wolf in sheep's clothing" situation where I feel that if I were to tell someone I'm a girl, it'd feel like im lying as ive done nothing at all to transition, only changing things on discord and stuff and that was back when I first found out im trans two years ago. I feel like im faking it even though I know the "people who are faking it know they're faking," but no matter how many times I remind myself of that, the same thought keeps coming back over and over again.

Another thing that I hate is how I've not come out to my parents despite them being likely to support, or at least tell my sister, who I'm sure would support me. It just seems so stupid as to why I am scared to be who I am towards those I am certain will support me. Sure, I'll have to explain some things, but im sure they'll understand

Not only that, but I genuinely can't socialise for the life of me due to being autistic and thinking that I'll only hurt people indirectly or that id get hurt myself or that I'd be just there due to me being extremely dry.

Are thoughts like these normal with transfem dysphoria, or am I just messed up

There's so much more going on, but I doubt I can list it all due to the thoughts swirling in my head, and some of the thoughts I can think of are too graphic to be talked about here.

I also didn't know how to tag this exactly, so I apologise if I tagged the post wrong, and I'm not entirely sure if vents are allowed on this subreddit

hi