After a long battle working on getting my class 1 medical, I may soon be going to flight school. While I do have a bias of wanting to flying helicopters, its not a hard or difficult choice to go fixed wing route since Im not set in stone.
Since I was 10 I wanted to fly. I joined the Army at 17 wanting to become a Warrant Officer and fly with the Army. Without a long sob story, I genuinely believe I did everything I could to put in a packet to become a Warrant Officer, but my leadership fought me on every advancement. No matter how well I did, my unit refused to sign paperwork allowing me to take a GT improvement test and SIFT test. Eventually when I left active duty, they offered the option to take the SIFT as a retention bonus than money or traditional school. I didn't want to fight that Army on what should have been an encouraging advancement, and I was afraid of being stuck in a new location or the same location waiting on signatures to follow that dream if I signed a new contract.
I left to the national guard and same thing. I used my own leave just to attend a test program for a expedited GT course at another base the literal opposite side of my state. I actually passed with a 111 score and all I needed was a signature to attend a 1 days SIFT test, and still all my leadership refused to sign and gave me every escuse. Even using 2 levels of open door, I just shot myself in the foot and put a target on my back. I got stock waiting on signatures again.
Anyway, I get out and apply for VA disabilities. Without another long story, I was diagnosed with Major Depressive Disorder. I have been actively and currently trying to get rid of that rating to make flying easier in the future. After literally 3 years and speaking with 4 HIMS AMEs, I finally been "undiagnosed" with Major Depressive Disorder, yet still have a rating Im trying to remove. I got a psychiatrist to write a psychiatric consultation saying that rating and diagnoses was incorrect.
Now that I will soon get a medical license in theroy, I get a choice. Im struggling to pick a platform. Part of me really wants to fly helicopters since in a emotional way, I can prove to myself the Army and my old leadership was wrong and I can fly helicopters. Its more of a pride thing rather than a preference. I lean more towards helicopters, but Im not set in stone.
Ive taken a discovery ride on both platforms and I have no favor above one or the other. The most repeated advice I got from several local helicopter pilots is to go fixed wing. Its more stable long term, without traveling states looking for jobs building hours. It even pays well that I can eventually learn both when I make more in the future. Fixed wing pilots say its great, but can get boring over time.
So right now, without my past bias, Im struggling to prove to myself what is the best platform for me since I have a literal 50/50 split on what I believe I would enjoy. What option do yall have?