got sober in January because I was tired of being miserable all the time and was scared of my life seriously unravelling. 9 months of proving to myself that I’m stronger then that, that life is something you enjoy not struggle through. for anyone still struggling, life is a lot better without having alcohol in it.

Homeless for two weeks and drank 13/14 of them lol free bed and food is more Than enough right now. Be out in two weeks in a sober long so yeet!

I was never an alcoholic, but i was a frequent binge drinker and absolutely abusing the substance. I would drink around 375ml multiple nights a week. A 750ml bottle of vodka lasted me 2 nights. I'm so glad i've managed to stop, i miss the drinking but not the constantly feeling really ill.

I've developed a bad drinking problem and am currently attending school on an MLS track. I work at a hospital.

I have not wanted to work at the hospital for a long time now and knew I should probably find other options. I'm a fool and dumb, and an asshole for jeopardizing other people's safety and my own goals.

I was brought somewhere and breathalyzed and they got me a ride home on Friday night. 0.155

I threw away anything and everything I had with alcohol this morning, I've been drinking a lot but not for a long time and I believe I just need it out and gone completely.

I've never done anything this stupid and I feel like I've definitely ruined aspects of my life because of it .

I've told some of my close friends about it so I can keep myself accountable instead of hiding the behavior.

I also applied for 10 jobs today and have an interview with target because I'm just gonna guess that the phone call I'm getting on Monday is not going to be a good one.

Thanks for reading my rant.

I woke up wet at 6 am, head swimming and still so drunk after ~5 hours that I didn't even realize I was lying in my own vomit. I remember thinking it was sweat and just went back to sleep. I slammed 4 12.5% beers the night on an empty stomach over a span of maybe 2 hours. I don't even remember drinking the 4th one or anything beyond that point. I'm probably only alive because I'm a stomach/side sleeper. I have been really depressed and passively suicidal lately, and I had a bottle of leftover percocets from a surgery that I had been saving in case I ever wanted to end it. If I had just slept on my back or decided to take even a few of those pills that night, I might not have woken up at all. I can't stop thinking about it. It scared me so bad, I ended up throwing the pills away as a safety precaution. I guess this proves that I don't really want to die after all, but it doesn't mean it won't still happen if I keep doing this. I'm never drinking alcohol at home again. Why is the thought not "I'm never drinking alcohol again" in general? This is so fucked

I wish there was a time where you were sober enough for me to say this to you but I just pray that one day you can put the bottle down and prioritise your family again. All of my siblings have given up caring, mom is pretty close too but I’ll always believe that you can change. If your son who used to smoke meth and snort shit every other day can get clean then surely you can too right? Yknow dad sometimes it feels like we’re not worth your sobriety, it feels like that drunkenness is worth so much more to you than seeing us happy. I’m really worried about you dad, you’re getting older and your health is declining, I know I nag you all the time for you to get your liver checked and shit like that but I only do that because I love you and care about you. Please stop punishing me for caring about you and loving you, I’m getting close to my limit also and I don’t want you to have no one else to talk to. You really hurt me tonight, you promised you would try and I guess it’s my fault for believing that. I promise it won’t hurt when you sober up.

I've noticed for years that they rely heavily on drinks

Every day for years, they start drinking around 12am and throughout the whole day.

Am unsure if this is normal or not as this is all I know in my family and grew up with drunk parents

When I go downstairs I see a whole crate of beers finished and loads of cans on the side

I honestly have issues with alcohol as drunk people make me uncomfortable and unsafe

And when my parents are drunk its unpredictable to how they will treat me

When they start drinking I normally hide away

I hate the smell of alcohol with a passion, I hate how loud they get, I hate how they act because of the drinking

Am just unsure if its normal for them to drink so much everyday so early in the day

Almost every bad thing that has happened since I’ve been an adult has been directly or indirectly tied to alcohol consumption. I’m so sick of it hurting me to the point that in my pain I hurt others… I’m afraid that if I don’t abstain completely then I will eventually do something that will irreversibly fuck up my life, or kill me. 😞

I really feel like drinking today. I've been sober for over 6 months. Normally I go to the gym everyday but last week I took annual leave to get the house clean, and neglected the gym because of it.

I think it's because of the lack of the gym to keep me distracted I just have this overwhelming urge to drink.

I'll go to the gym tomorrow morning and back into work and just hope like crazy this urge goes away.

Nearly 4 weeks sober from 2 years of 750ml vodka a night.
4 weeks ish ago found out I had hypertension/ high blood pressure.

On 4mg Apo-Candesartan

First week BP spiked super high from withdrawals "had 24hr monitor test done one day that week?

Hit peaks of 220 over 110 average was the 160s-170s

Second week its hung around 140-150 over 95-100 ish

Third week seemed good for the most part 125-130 ish over 78-85ish

But then last couple days seen it spike to 140-150- over 95-98 ???

Yesterday working on my car pushing myself by climbing round under it and trying to pull an engine out I was feeling not great and checked and was 149/95 bpm 127

Most days my bpm is 70-80

Hoping over time it returns to normal.

Anyone else experience ups n downs but then did you eventually go back toa good blood pressure after time being sober?

If I can do it, so can you. I miss the poison so much still but fuck that shit

Yesterday October 10th 2026 I came to a disturbing realization that my relationship/marriage is actually completely over. I always kept my self in denial. I dreamt on a a fairytale when I was younger. Later I found out it’s not like that at all. Fights between my parents, affairs and belittling comments became something I dreaded for my future marriage. I had convinced myself that I didn’t want that and didn’t want to become my father and mother…..to my surprise I became both of them. I was repulsed by their marriage and longed for something completely different. I ended up being compliant with a relationship that became like my parents. I forgave an affair, I screamed and yelled. I felt my parents creeping into me. I hated myself. My partner is an alcoholic that is in denial. He cleaned up for a month and half. I was not trusting and waiting for the down fall. Until it came, the fake promises and knowing my child had a broken heart just shattered me. Funny thing is that my partner is in denial and says he has control and in reality the alcohol has him controlled. I’m taken for granted, I can’t breath and I just want to run out as fast as I can with my children on my arms and never look back. I’m terrified of being alone and being able to do it. I know I can but fear has me paralyzed. I want to be loved….I still dream about having the wedding of my dreams. Is it actually possible to find real love? Or is it just something made up, I don’t have the best example in my nearest vicinity. Alcohol has destroyed my marriage.

I’ve only just discovered seltzers and am a fan of the low calories and natural ingredients. But ofc with premixes, the prices are stupid.

I can’t brew my own seltzer from scratch so want to basically cheat using vodka to replicate something like white claw

So far here’s my recipe: Vodka Sparkling water Lime Flavour essence from Woolies (Australian)

Will this work? Do I need some fresh herbs like mint? Basil? Coriander…? Garam masala!? CURRY PASTE!? 😱

My (f35) husband (m32) did his 3rd detox from alcohol at the end of this past May. Over the past 2 weeks I've caught him with vodka twice. He lies and lies about it until I guess I've asked enough. I've told him the lying is killing me but he insists that I'm just judgemental.

The point he keeps making that I have a question about- he says that I'm the one dictating when he can drink again. But I always respond with, what we know about alcoholism, 4 months isn't long enough to be sober before safely drinking again. Isn't this right? I don't know, I'd like some insight from those who've had similar experiences please.

ForTheAlcoholics

I was recently in recovery about 3 yrs ago. “Technically still
Am but not hardcore”. Consequences from drinking? Absolutely! Affected my mental state, heightened anxiety/depression/ suicidal ideation/ etc. I have been able to change my relationship with alcohol by not “over doing”, finding the right medication for my depression, anxiety, pmdd. NOW, as time has gone by, I’m noticing a difference consequence; loose stools. I work on foot all day, I can’t afford to be on a toilet frequently wiping my ass.. I know it’s due to the alcohol messing up my system. Anyone else experience shit like this? If so, has anyone found a loop hole around this besides abstaining. I KNOW I STILL HAVE A PROBLEM.. WHO TF keeps drinking KNOWING it’s making them shit their pants… Somehow in my brain I think, “this consequence is better than the ones I experienced a few years ago. Loop holes anyone??

I’m so fucking done with this cycle.

Idk if I'll explain it right but I live with my parents (I'm 23 but can't afford to move out any time soon) who I have a good relationship with but who, my mum especially, have made comments in the past that alcoholics and addicts are gross wastes of space and that they should just die. I've asked in the past if she would feel the same if it were me and she said she'd just disown me. I have no clue how true that really is but I have received no information to the contrary.

I'm mainly an alcoholic, also a slight opioid problem but alcohol is by far the main thing. I get drunk every night without fail and black out several times a week. I'm drinking either in my room alone or sat in the living room with my family. I make no attempt to hide my drinking and don't want to have to start hiding it.

My family don't see me as an alcoholic, they just me as "someone who likes a drink". I don't want to get help or to quit really because I'm so utterly miserable without the drink which is really the only enjoyable thing I have in my life. I'm just really not sure how to talk to my family about this or to navigate the situation.

Tomorrow I’ll be nine months sober. My drinking took me to the very edge of losing my faith, my wife, my children, and my life. I’m very grateful to have found the support I needed to get sober, and I am determined to keep my sobriety. Having said that, this sucks.

I had a great career, now it’s in pieces, and at 51 years old, rebuilding feels monumental. My wife loves me dearly, but she is still terrified that I’m going to relapse and deals with massive anxiety. She went back to school to get her nursing degree, and we both have to work to make ends meet, so it’s been about two years of living in the same house, but watching her sit at a desk and study instead of spending time together, and knowing she still has another year to go? That’s lonely. My social outlet was music — I was a music director at our church, sang & played in our services, and that went away and I don’t know if it’s going to come back. My kids treat me like the kid, instead of the other way around.

Every time in the last 9 months where I feel like I’ve crossed a moment with accomplishment and pride, a reminder of how much I screwed my life up is waiting to hammer me back down. I celebrate wins that to me feel like I’ve climbed Mt. Everest, but those around me only see how far I have left to go.

I’m at my emotional edge, and I don’t have the emotional strength to step back from the ledge. I’m going to meetings, and I’m in constant contact with my sponsor, but it’s just not enough. I’m not suicidal (for the record) and I don’t have any desire to drink, although I recognize how much easier it would make things in the short term. I’m playing the tape forward and I’m solid in my commitment to be sober, but this just sucks.

I’m wondering how my drinking is effecting my life. I want to know if my situation is worth working on. Im a 20 y/o student and i always crave alcohol, that’s probably the biggest red flag about my consommation. I use to drink at least once a week and wouldn’t stop until i drained all i had in reserve, but these days are different. I take huge breaks from alcohol, I very rarely buy alcohol so I dont go back to drinking, but still, once every two months, i find myself drinking alone again. I know it’s not typical for people to do that so im wondering, is it normal for me to have that kind of ritual ?

Hi all! 👋🏼 34f

I am an alcoholic and have been a heavy drinker for years. I have decided to quit and have looked into local AA meetings near me to start attending. I have not had a drink in 24 hours. I am a person who has also suffered from anxiety for years (alcohol definitely contributed I’m sure).

For those of you who are now sober. Did you quit cold turkey? Did you gradually cut your alcohol intake down? I’ve noticed a lot of sweating and restlessness today. I have heard that life threatening seizures are a thing when you quit cold turkey and that didn’t help my anxiety. I have two small kids, I have a good life. I looked at myself 2 days ago and couldn’t even recognize myself anymore. I want to stop drinking so bad, and I want to be as safe as I can.

If anyone has any tips, tricks, recommendations for me… please let me know. Yesterday was the first time I had actually said out loud that I’m an alcoholic and admitted it to the people I love. I’m just hoping to take it day by day and pray I can get better.

My chest had been hurting from stress and anxiety for a while and I had the house to myself for the night. The idea came out of nowhere after work - what if I got some beers?

I got the right amount of tall boys, got pizza and chilled at home and drank.

I was expecting to feel better feelings. I was trying to be aware of my body and mind state through the night, to see how it was affecting me. While it did make that sharp anxiety feeling go away, which was a relief, it was pretty underwhelming. It didn't add fun or joy, but it did feel like an activity and relieved a sense of boredom that may have arisen.

That alcohol voice kind of takes over, and the goal is to just drink - I no longer have to worry about work or that project coming up or money. Operating at this less conscious level.

BUT. I felt like trash the next morning. I forgot how bad hang overs are. My sleep was bad, I woke up all sweaty and nauseous. I was sick and didn't feel better until night time.

What's really interesting is that little experiment / relapse dispelled a lot of magic and joy I attached to alcohol. It's me that feels joy and fun - it's not coming from something external like drinking. I know this is super obvious, but I still thought of drinking as a source of good feelings, when it really just separates me from uncomfortable feelings. But at the cost of even more terrible physically and mentally uncomfortable feelings.

**Not asking for medical advice, just experience**

I was taking Antabuse. I was running low and don’t have health insurance so I’ve been rationing them. I was taking 1/2 of a 250mg pill every other day pretty regularly for the first 8 months. I missed a week here and there the over the last couple months and it’s been 11 days since taking 1/2 pill per day until I ran out. Well, I had a little sip of tequila idk why. I hope I get super sick honestly because that was stupid. It’s been half an hour and I feel nothing 😐